One of My Manifestation Coaches asked me “how did a Million Dollars Feel ?” (side note: Yes, even People who are Experts have Coaches & Mentors)…I was kinda like 🤷🏽♀️ “what do you mean? It feels like the numbers I see on the computer screen 😂.” Then I said, “are you asking me how a Million Dollars felt the first time I touched it, like in the Bank 🏦 @ 25?” Now, that’s different.
The First Time I saw a Million Dollars on the Computer 🖥️ Screen I was TOO EXCITED. In my head, I was like, “Yooo, this is what I just read about in the Millionaire Next Door & Rich Dad, Poor Dad!” But, I had to stay calm because I was processing an Interest Payment for a Home Builder Client. It was May 2006. And, I remember that day clearly. My CEO sent me down to the Piperton Branch to shadow one of His Top Real Estate Portfolio Managers. The bank was pretty much 2 steps from being a trailer🙄. It was so small in there. But, we were in the process of building a larger Bank that cost $40 Million. My CEO, at the time, called it the Taj Mah Hal of Fayette County😂. The staff was running behind and the last thing they had time to do was train me, so I just jumped in & asked how I could help. The girl looked at me & asked me if I knew anything about computers…I was like sure. Then she handed me a check for $100,728.64 and said “Process this.” I said, “Sir whats your name, let’s see if I can find you in the system?” He gave me his name & there it was across the screen. His Account Balance read “$1,000,728.64.” And I damn near, lost my mind in my head, “Rashida that’s a $1Million Client. You have $100k+ literally in your hands. You are processing a $100k+ Payment. This is the Big Leagues🙌🏽!!!” But, I was completely calm, cool, & collected externally. I fumbled my way through the payment, got him his receipt, thanked him for his business and told him. I’d see him next time. I had been at the bank for like a week. I started thinking to myself, I think I’m gonna like this career😀! (Side Note: #SynchronicityUnlocked - I did my 1st Billion dollar deal in May too lollol I believe I just opened another Gate🙂).
Anyway, for sooo long, me dealing with Millions, Multi Millions, & Billions of Dollars was just a normal day for me, why would I get excited for someone on a computer screen when I was doing the risk/loan/deal management to most likely make them more wealthy? I mean ultimately I know it serves a purpose. But, honestly, after 18Years, I had been pretty desensitized to seeing those large number on my screen to me it was just another deal I was doing 🤷🏽♀️ and we get compensated after the deal closes.
That being said, I have had to reawaken and reconnect to my own money💰 because in my head they really are just more numbers. And, I have had to remove programming from my consciousness to break through those barriers so my company can go to the next level. I get it now, just reconnecting the dots and making them meaningful again has value. I learned a long time ago to be neutral in the comings and goings on inflow and outflow. I guess I do get excited when I see the 0’s piling up every now and again. But, I made the choice a long time ago to be neutral in and out of season. It’s just a part of me at this point. But, it does feel #Full #Overflowing #MorethanEnough #MoreIsAlwaysComing.
I’ve learned that even though the perception that my family had “money” where I grew up, that didn’t apply to me because my Mother was always struggling. Truth be told, we were the poor kids of the family b/c of two divorces my Mom & Us had struggled through. And, she just didn’t make much money as an Art School Teacher. But, my mother was always working. Even if we didn’t see much fruit from her labor. She did the best she could being a Single Mother of 4 Kids during the 80s & 90s. I said all that to say that it doesn’t matter where you start on your journey. I was clearly at the disadvantage as far as our circumstances were concerned.
The comfortability of what we did have was the result of My Mother moving back home from Nashville in the late 70s and allowing my Grandfather & Grandmother to help her raise us. And, for that, I am always grateful and thankful. Especially, to my Grandfather who stepped up naturally to fill the Father role that was missing from my life when my Mother & Father Split #GodRestHisSoul. Once I became of age, I refused to let anything stand in my way of building wealth from a very young age. That is where #PenniesToProfits was born. As a little Girl, I was OBSESSED with Penny Loafers because of the new shiny penny i'd get every-time I got new ones. I believe that Penny was the beginning of My #BlingLife. But, it was always in the highest taste of standards b/c I am a Lady🙂. Nevertheless, I hope some of the words you read today inspire you no matter what stage of life you are in know that time brings about a change & the people who start on the bottom don’t necessarily always stay there😉. As always thanks for reading & make sure you Tune in to The Manie$ting Million$ Podcast For Actionable Tips to Boost 🚀 Your Wealth-Building Journey. Grab Your Freebie➡️ website: www.rashida.ai
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